How and Why I started MY Journey
Hey Hey ya’all. I am going to be writing about, more or less, how and why I started this journey. There is a bit of a back story so bare with me here.
I have wanted to start a youtube channel for a long time, and have been watching simmer’s for quite a while now. I thought, honestly, no way you can do that. It will fail like everything else you have tried.
Back Story: Tried a World of Warcraft account, Tried a fitness/nutrition account, tried a parenting account, just could never stick with them and the backlash on some old fashioned or personal opinions is UNREAL.
That brings us back to The Sims. I have been playing since the sims 1 and it has NEVER been boring for me at all.
I first found lilsimsie on youtbe and then a month later I found Sydney Macoretta and I was like “WOW, I can so do this” and then immediately though “Nope, no you can’t”.
I struggle with MAJOR Anxiety and Depression. I am BiPolar, therefore, not much I can do to change the struggle, or so I thought.
Back Story: YES, I have 6 beautiful, healthy, amazing children of my own AND a brilliant, beautiful, amazing BONUS child. (We don’t use the word STEP in my home or family).
I am very lucky to have these children and yes I know that, please no backlash on the story coming.
So, with that said, my very first pregnancy was a miscarriage, lead by my 6 babies. Yay I did it. I always wanted 6-8 as my granny had 10…. And she was my ALL Star.
Anyway, Jumpin ahead to the year 2020….. We didn’t want more kiddo’s, happy with what we have and very grateful for them.
However, in October of 2020 I found out I was pregnant, confirmed. We were happy anyway, in our eyes it was happening for a reason.
Our Motto: Everything Happens For A Reason
2nd Motto: With All Good Comes Bad and With All Bad Comes Good.
At my age, 35 at the time,, and twins running in both out families we were nervous! I had always wanted a set of twins but was told LONG ago I could never carry them. Due to being too petite built.
Well, an injury at 8 had doctors tell my mom I would NEVER carry ANY baby full-term and here I sat with 6 anyway and pregnant! They were very wrong, all my babies were full term.
Anyway, Leading up to all of this, November has been a horrible month for us for YEARS! We lost my Mother-in-Law Nov. 17th, 2011, My youngest brother at 21 years old on Nov 17th, 2012.
One positive, I did have my youngest Nov. 27th, 2019.
Now all this leads up to Nov 25th, 2020. Yes, Thanksgiving Day.
I woke up that morning it severe pain and I knew exactly what it meant. I proceeded to call the doc get the okay to let everything happen on its own at home.
By 7:15am I lost my first and ONLY set of twins……..
Me and my girls went about our day, afterwards, cooked a beautiful dinner. Cried. Loved each other. Hubby was even upset which shocked me. He wanted another baby LESS than I did.
All in all I was flat out devastated. My depression started hitting full force and I was headed towards an emotional shut down, you can google that if you are unsure what that is…
So I told myself to find SOEMTHING, ANYTHING that could keep me and my mind busy so I wouldn’t think about how horrible November is anymore and just help me make it through the month.
I already had some pics, vids, etc done for sims from just playing around at this point. So I said “Just do it” My kids and hubby agreed.
I jumped on the PC, I created my youtube channel, Twitter, Instagram and uploaded BASIC info, followed and subbed to my favorites, uploaded a video and called it a day!
The very next day I woke up to followers, comments, likes and that was it!! I had found my peace!
I decided I would take a horrible and make it as positive as I could. I chose to give as much love and support to each person I possibly could and just be ME and be transparent.
That brings us to NOW, Dec 2021, a year later. I am fabulous, my community still keeps me going, I am at my happiest. My family is super proud. And I couldn’t be more proud of myself for coming out of my comfort zone and trying this.
It has and my lovely community has, literally saved MY life.
I love you all so much.
